Isnin, 20 September 2010

my tears.....

You 're not worth my tears.. but i find myself still crying myself to sleep.
sudah lame aku tak menulis di sini oleh di sebabkan berlakunya perkara-perkara yg berunsur sedih dalam keluarga aku... tak ada masa aku nak menulis...
1 syawal.... hari raya semua orang bergumbira tapi jangan lupa pada yg berduka... ok last pose tak tahu nape aku leh bangun awal pagi dan tak tido semula hehehe... lepas berbuka pose tu aku dgn sahabat aku basrie tu merayau lah kat bandar yg penuh dengan kenderaan (jem gler) oleh sebab kitaorg nk mengelak jem jadi kitaorg bwa moto je lah senang... pergi shoping raye lah katakan... last minit punya hehehe... aku tak sempat nk beli ape2 basrie dapat lah beli gak ape yg dia nk tiba2 hujan turun dgn lebatnye jadi redah je lah ujan balik rumah.. lejut kitaorg mandi hujan... aku bawa kereta pulak lah nak pergi mkn  alang2 basrie nk beli kuih raye lg... mase duk melepak sambil mkn kt kdai tu kitaorg col sepupu aku yg dh berada kat kelantan... makcik aku balik sana dan masuk wad di sana.... mula2 berborak gelak ketawa... jadi aku rase macam makcik aku tak berapa teruk lah keadaan dia.... lepas mkn ingat nk pergi beli kuih raye tapi basrie rase malas je jadi pergilah melepak kat rumah abg dia.. aku nk scan gbr ... abg dia xde kt rumah blik raye kat kedah. tengah aku duk sibuk scan gbr tu tiba2 sepupu aku call dlm keadaan nangis2.... dia bagi tahu makcik aku dh tenat dan beberapa minit lps tu makcik aku terlah meningal dunia.... aku dengan pantas bersama basrie mencari kereta utk balik kelantan mlm ni jugak.... waktu mase tu kul 1 pagi dh 1 syawal... abg aku nk balik petang raye tu tapi basrie berjaya pinjam kereta abg dia mlm tu jugak... kereta dia dh lps kt kedah... kitaorg terus balik mlm tu jugak.. aku bawa viva dan basrie wira.. aku, abg aku, akak aku dan abg ipar aku..... basrie dgn mak dia dan ayah dia. akak aku tak sihat tapi degil nak balik jugak...

GEnap 10 hari... kiranye hari yg kesebelas lah.... akak aku tu pun same mengikut jejak makcik aku..... waktu ni kitaorg dh ada kat pahang.... dalam lebih kurang masa yg same dgn makcik aku... dekat pukul 1 pagi hari ni (20/9/10) akak aku meningal dunia. pada ari sabtu tu lagi kitaorg dh pujuk dia suh g hospital tapi dia tak nk... tengahari ahad tu ambulan datang ambik kat rumah. ok mase ptg tu aku kena hantar ank sedara aku ni balik kolej dia.. tapi tak tahu kenapa aku rase malas sgt nk hantar dia... aku hantar dlm keadaan terpaksa je rase.... selepas dpt berita ni mlm tu ank sedara aku ni tak lepas nk balik sebab pensyarah kt situ wat hal... geram tul aku.. macam lah kitaorg nk menipu dlm hal2 kematian ni.. aku marah2 lah dlm telefon.. jujur aku cakap pansyarah tu bodoh... mase bercakap dgn aku macam budak2 je yg cakap tak macam pensyarah pun.... mase aku nk g ambik anak sedara aku ni... aku mintak tolong basrie.. pakai kereta dia sbb kereta aku abg aku pakai... dalam poket aku ade rm2 je... cam ne nk isi minyak ni??? masalah ni... itu je duit aku yg tingal... tapi basrie dgn ikhlasnye guna duit dia... aku tahu dia pun tgah sesak macam aku jugak... dia mintak kat akak dia duit tu utk wat mkn tp dh guna isi minyak pulak.... memang sahabat sejati lah... aku ade duit kang aku nak ganti tapi dia cakap tak perlu lah.... kitaorg kongsi beli air tin sbb xde dh duit yg tingal... sebenarnye aku dh bermimpi tentang kematian akak aku ni dlm bln pose ari tu lg tp aku ingat sekadar mainan tido... tp ape yg aku mimpi tu 100% same dgn keadaan hari ni...

aku harap kowang dapat sedekahkan Al-Fatihah ke atas dua roh akak dan makcik aku ni.... aku sayang sangat pada mereka... sakit dada aku tahan nangis sebab aku kena tunjuk kuat depan anak sedara aku semua..... lepas ni aku akan berusaha membantu menjaga mereka semua.... sekian wasalam..
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Selasa, 7 September 2010

TO ALL MY FRIENDS

Hello
To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when
you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if
they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never
look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to
a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall
and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry." Not "where are you",
but "I'm right here." Not "how could you", but "I understand." Not "I wish you were",
but "I'm thankful you are."

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but
how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never
keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's
more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks
up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in
the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone
who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year
or 10 years from now. Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you who is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
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